Did you ever watch that show Fixer Upper with Chip and Joanna Gaines on HGTV? Do you remember how Chip would get so excited on Demo Day, and he'd go around shouting/singing/declaring "It's Demo Day?!" Yah I think I have the exact opposite reaction when it's chemo day! Seeing as how this might be Scott's last chemo for a while (hopefully forever), I was planning on going with him, even though it was the off week with the doctor. I even said no to an appointment with my mother in order to have the morning free to spend with him. Well, let me tell you, my body had another idea!
We were all ready to go at 7:30 AM for his 8:00 AM appointment. After the kids left for school we drove down to his appointment and as I was pulling into the parking lot, my stomach began cramping up. It was like really painful indigestion mixed with menstrual cramps. I figured my breakfast didn't agree with me and it would pass. We went inside and he got checked in and as we went to the waiting area, I felt like I was going to pass out! The pain was so bad! I couldn't sit down; I couldn't stand up straight. I just kind of wriggled there in the waiting room, trying to find a comfortable position, hoping it would pass. Scott told me I should go home and get some rest and he'd call me when he was done. I didn't want to. I had planned to be here with him. My stupid body wasn't going to stop me. After about 30 more seconds of painful abdominal cramps, I decided it was best if I went home and tried to rest. I kissed him goodbye and left just as they called him back. We were right by the hospital; I was tempted to just go into the ER and see if they could help me! I decided to just tough it out on the drive home. That was very uncomfortable! I could feel my face and head getting really hot and I started to sweat. I started to feel nauseous and like I was going to throw up. I decided if it didn't pass after I turned the corner I would pull over and puke on the side of the road. The nausea subsided long enough for me to get home, but just barely. Luckily we don't live that far from the hospital, but it was still a long three minutes! I tried to breath deep even breaths to keep my body relaxed ans I drove home. When I arrived home, I bolted upstairs and made a beeline to the toilet! Nothing came up, despite my continued cramping and nauseous feelings. I stayed in the bathroom a few more minutes and then decided to get the heating pad and go lay down.
I put the heating pad on my stomach and lay in the fetal position in my bed for about an hour. The pain subsided after about ten minutes. I just lay in bed and rested and wondered what was going on! Was I having sympathy pains for our daughter and her ovarian cyst, or was it an actual cyst that had burst? Did I have a bladder infection or UTI? Did I have some weird bowel obstruction, or a tumor on my colon that was flaring up? Or was it just some weird psychosomatic thing that manifested itself in response to Scott's chemo day? Whatever it was, I felt a lot better a couple of hours later when Scott called saying he was done and asked if I could pick him up.
Whatever was going on, it went away! So weird! I'm still trying to process it all and learn what I need to from this. It was really nice to just lay in bed and relax and contemplate things. I don't do that much, but that's kind of on purpose. It's easier to just stay so busy that I don't have time to think about it.
Scan #3 is scheduled for October 15th. Please send prayers, good thoughts and vibes, warm fuzzies, etc., our way in the meantime. Meanwhile, we'll just keep doing what we're doing - trying to eat healthy, continue to learn new things about how to treat cancer naturally, continue to improve our overall health, enjoy spending time with each other (for the most part) and trying to notice God's tender mercies in our lives. Here are some that have happened since my last post:
- A sweet neighbor and friend delivered a big bouquet of flowers to our daughter and gave me some delicious, healthy chocolate because she knew we needed a pick me up.
- A friend who I occasionally visit with texted and suggested we get together since it has been a while. We were able to get together today and enjoyed a lovely walk together as we visited about everything under the sun and then some more.
- A random neighbor left a bag of delicious nectarines on our front porch and another one delivered some cookies as a thank you to our 11-year-old son who delivered some to his house with his scout troop last week. I love people's goodness.😊
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